SCATTERED PIECES

Have you ever feel it? that feeling when you really don’t know what to say? because you don’t know what is really happening to you?, so all you just do is looked down and let the tears falls…

It was a sad situation knowing that you have the power to make yourself alright but you choose to let those monsters fears eat you slowly. It’s hard when you pity on yourself it seems like drowning yourself in the sea, getting lost in the vast city and stabbing yourself gently.

You’re bleeding, you saw it but you choose to feel it, stay there and kept hurting. But you need to escape now, you need to pull your shits together, have courage to get the life you deserve.

You will be okay… not now but soon.

 

Figuring Out

“I’m already 21 but I’m still figuring out the things I really want to do”. I’ve graduated frm a well-known university in our province. I’m an achiever but right now it seems like I don’t know in what kind of path I am in at this point. Well I’ve got my first job as a technical support representive in a BPO company but after 2 months I’ve resigned because it was tiring, Im fed up and unhealthy  for me.

Am I a quitter? Honestly, yes because I can’t endure a simple pain and I know that it’s actually a xo-xo habit. And so now, I AM FREE, welcoming myself to the world of unemployment. It’s been one month, haven’t  got a job yet. I really want to do something. I badly need too, because I might get stuck in this comfortable place I live. I want to explore, learn and try new things but I am quite afraid.

I am afraid of rejection, it cuts deep in my skin. And it’s been a while that I have this question in my head after watching a movie “Why do people hurt others?”.

Can you answer me?

“Unknown”

 

Starring blankly in the air.

I don’t even know what am I feeling.

Can you tell me what is this unknown emotion that has been bothering me?

Please tell me I am not weird, insane or odd.

Please do tell me that I am ordinary, for me to live.

For me to live my life how it supposed to be.